you know, even when i tried all means
to avoid and ignore you.
my mind is constantly thinking about you.
staring my phone for sms,
stoning at the comp for a comment,
blog hopping between our blogs for a sign,
sitting by the phone for a ring.

even when i'm awake i can dream of you.
needless to say, night after night i see you.
i dream of you smiling, laughing, staring.
and to, have i stared into the blank wall
till i fall asleep with you dancing in my head.

i'm an ass to do such dumb stuff,
but i just want to see if i really can do without you.
if i could just carry on life without your presence.
it was mean of me, i know.
easy as it seems, it was terrible.
every second felt like days,
days like months. *frowns*

maybe this four days was nothing to you,
just like another other day passing by.
no reaction, no emotion, no feeling.
oh well, it is really alright.
this is not a test for you, but for me.

i can finally see that, i cant do without you.
life is sure bad enough. the wait is killing me.
Haiz, 4 days. Just 4 days. Four Days.
Army How?

whats on your mind right now?
to be honest, i dont have a single clue.
for you always leave me hanging around,
guessing and assuming how things are doing.
how do i know if im wrong or right?
thats the problem you see.

"Horoscope says its a good day to thrash things out."